Anxiety

A constant anticipation

Of everything that exists

Foot shaking, nail biting

My stomach in a pit

Never in the moment, right here right now

I want to succeed but I‘m clueless as to how

I fear failure more than anything

Irritation from everything around

Eventually, I’m defeated

And I simply shut down.

From the outside I seem lazy

Just a girl lying in her bed

But if only you knew the capacity

Of the thoughts whirling around my head

I finally remember to breathe

And ride the bumpy waves

For one moment ill feel defeated

And the next one I’ll be okay